Things seem so grim yet I feel that there's hope. I've no idea what's going on in my life right now. So many things changed in an instance; the rapid change have left me bewildered and confused. I don't know what is going on in my life anymore. Old episodes are repeating itself and there is no way I would want to relive that trauma. The possibility of an unhappy boy returning is rather high.

Matters that I've once thought was simple and plain have developed into something more convoluted and sinuous, to the extent that I would encounter a myriad of difficulties tackling it. With exams usurping more than 10hours a day, it's no wonder why I'm in such a mess. Praying that an external factor would just come along and save me from this horror.

Councilor maybe? I don't know. But what I do know is that if no one comes to my rescue. I would just continue to sink further into my deep well of melancholy. Angst just fills me up to the brim.

Appearance versus reality, what you see may not be what is true. As much as i would like to take things at face value and pretend that there is absolutely nothing wrong, it cannot be done!