Monday, 3 August, 2009 @9:30 PM
The leisure and relaxation seems to come to a sudden halt. The load of homework and studying is taking a toll of my emotional health as well as my physical health. Who wouldn't feel the burden and weight? If you don't, you're super human. Either that or your a genius.
Once again, here bitching about teachers. One that called my parents for no apparent reason and being extremely crude with words, my parents weren't spared anything. Not only that, she went on to informing Mr Tang which in terms, called up to have a "personal conversation" which did not felt the least bit comfortable. Well, it certainly did top the mental burden and stress which I'm currently undergoing, not to mention causing a swirl of confusion in my head, leaving me perplexed and stumped. Nonetheless, Tuesday tomorrow. Currently preparing to rot in hell for 1 and a half hours. Listening to her talk is worst than taking a viking ship up and down 30 times continueously. It only manages to make me feel like I'm on a roller coaster ride, not knowing when to stop for a breather. Because every moment and second in her presence is like, inhaling carbon monoxide and equavilant to having 10mols of sulfuric acid poured on my skin. Bloody Chemistry. I wished it never had existed, at least if she was teaching 3B.
Another matter of hypocrisy and badmouthing incident caught my eye. With the accused insulting my intellectual prowess as well as being so bitterly in digust of my behaviour. I shan't name any names here. It just so happened that I found out about it and decided to put them into words. So lesson to be learnt here, if you're gonna slaughter someone with your verbal tongue lashing, do it in a way that your tracks would be covered well enough so that others may not by accident discover traces of your misdeed. That certain someone is really going to have it bad, I'll laugh till the cows come home if he happens to do something ironical. At that moment, I'll be too hysterically laughing at him that I won't have time to bother about anything else.
Back again to being really cynical about people. It's as though everyone is bound to use others for their own personally and selfish reasons. To say, I don't belong to any clique, nor especially close to anyone and not forgeting that I'm no longer property of anyone else. The advantage of being alone is that you observe; observe every strange movement and dumb moments in people's life that they so desperately try to hide. For example, you walk all the way to the bus stop, and then suddenly realised that you've left something which you require to complete a task and ended up walking all the way back to class. All these when you are alone without anyone around to talk/explain your eccentric behaviour. You find yourself really stupid and question yourself what caused you to omit that bit of precedent before going home. You see, the people around you are not to be trusted. They abandon you in times of need and flock to you the minute they know you're back on track.
Anyways, I've been guilty of thinking too much again. Letting my thoughts wander is NOT a good thing. Something too abstract even for me to tackle.
Being really sadistic lately, drawings of people dying, gothic and dark images which is associated with unhappiness. Writing things like "Hit it, blow it, snap it, cut it, slam it, break it."
"Hit the button. Pierce it through, it will feel much better."
